I just finished my last assignment of grad school

And I’m suffering from a horrible irrational fear that I’m going to fail something, rendering me unable to graduate. Some of it has to do with the fact that I’ve been up for an ungodly amount of time.. but some of this anxiety is actually due to not knowing. I haven’t felt this way in a while.. perhaps because I always knew I would have another semester?

On the bright side, if I pass…. I’ll have a master’s degree.The utter anxiety.. ugh… what do I do?

I apologize in advanced, but some things have to be said. As I am graduating from Rutgers this year with my Masters, this matter is at the forefront of my brain. I do not have strong feelings one way or another about our commencement speaker. If I had my choice, I would beg for Toni Morrison to come back and speak to us (or I could wish to have graduated two years ago).

That said, I do have concerns about uninformed, self-important “opinions” people share. I put opinions in quotes because I am a firm believer that everyone is entitled to their opinion AS LONG AS IT IS INFORMED. No one should have to listen to you if you are spewing your ideology without knowledge of the topic, evidence, support, or research. People already have an inflated sense of self importance and they defend themselves with the idea of free speech without knowing anything about what that means. They espouse American values whilst knowing very little about American policies and how these policies may contrast with those of other countries.

Believe it or not, an opinion can be wrong.


My Facebook post on the many articles and comments on this topic:

The amount of misinformation posted on this topic is rather disconcerting. I’m reading things such as “racist”, “leftist”, “sexist”, “Snooki”, as well as sweeping generalizations about “this generation” being thrown around without the appropriate contextual lens or necessary background information. To me, this issue is no longer about the commencement speaker; it’s about the willful ignorance of certain people who choose to express their opinions on the internet. Honestly, this leads me to question humanity. With all of the information available to a person, you would think that a person would take a couple of seconds to Google something before giving their uninformed “2 cents”.

Teaching Problems

My week as described through the last 12 hours:
1. Settles down to rest my eyes for about 20 minutes.
2. Wakes up at 6:30A.M. panicked because my phone is dead and I know I’m going to be late for school.
3. Realize it’s Saturday.
4. Ends up with 12 hours of sleep in total.
So I’ve hit the reset button, I’m no longer pale and all I have to do is take care of things around the homestead. Good to go you guys… good to go.

This is bad you guys

I didn’t think I was nervous, but apparently I can’t sleep cause the first day of school is tomorrow and I get to meet my students! My cooperating teacher is a really chill guy and seems okay with me taking over his class, but I haven’t really received any instruction from him so far. Blah these useless nerves x.x

you may have already seen this, but it’s really powerful stuff.

Horror Movies

I’m actually disappointed in the horror industry nowadays. I know people think that horror is a dead genre, that we shouldn’t expect much from it because of the lack of originality or that the cliches simply no longer function. I’m not going to lower my expectations just because of these ideas. I don’t watch horror movies to feel completely refreshed or to come up with some life changing revelations, I watch them because of the thrill of vicarious fear. I love it and I cannot accurately explain why. I accept convoluted plots and bad dialogue as a consequence of the industry now. Sadly, my tolerance for that sort of thing has increased with every horror movie I see.

What I cannot accept is the fact that horror movies now use disgust and gore as a replacement for actual terrifying actions/events/etc. Having someone vomit blood for a minute straight on screen does not make me terrified, it just makes me think of how bored I am (or how fake the blood looks). Having someone get stabbed/torn/shredded multiple times by multiple implements just makes me wonder how they expect us to still believe that these characters can walk around without experiencing crippling shock that could kill them (probably a lot less scary/cringe-worthy to most). When it legitimately rains blood on the scenery, I just think of where the blood comes from and how I hope that the people it came from were disease free.

I understand that people have different ideas of what horror is. They will have different thresholds for these different actions before they are scared (or just nauseated- which by the way is not really the same as fear). However, this is not the horror genre that I love anymore. It’s just… other…

Rant complete. If you made it through all that reading and you’re feeling up to it, tell me how you feel?


Me: You don’t know me! Do you even go to this school?

Pandora: Oh yea? *plays legend of Zelda medley in string quartet*

Me: ….

Pandora: Yeah that’s right bitch

Pandora:1   Henry:0

Give me the strength

to understand the illogical, because as it stands currently, these people are going to be the death of me.

That was the best Valentine’s day in recent memory

And it didn’t involve romance at all o.O. Hmmmm….

About me

Henry. Chinese. 22. Bi. English/Psych. New Jersey. There is nothing at all that ties this blog together. It will just feature a compilation of things I find beautiful or interesting. Personal stuff is tagged under "me"

this is tony.. my mascot :P

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